I only have 5 weeks of class left. Then it's time for the "real world." (Not the over-dramatic MTV show, just life without school.) I'm pretty excited about the idea of graduating, but I'm a little discouraged because I don't know what's happening after.

I'm trying so hard just to fully put my trust in God's plan and not worry myself about it, but it's so difficult. I know that He has a plan, and I know that His plan is to prosper, not harm me. I keep just praying and letting it all go to Him, but soon after, I find myself trying to regain control of the situation.

I recently applied for this job that I really want. It's not the type of job I've been looking at normally, but once I read the job description, I knew this was something I wanted to do. I submitted my resume and cover letter by email and by mail. I even went out and purchased some nice manila envelopes and printed off some labels. It hasn't even been a week since I submitted it, and already I'm feeling kind of nervous about the outcome. I just keep thinking, "Should I call them? Email them again?" I even lost a night of sleep just thinking about this job.

I'm hoping that the excitement I have for this job, as opposed to some of the others I have applied for, is a sign that it's something good. It's not a job I want because it pays well (the pay is mediocre), but because it's a job where I can see myself making a difference and really enjoying the work I would do. That's much more important to me than a huge paycheck.

It appears I'm starting to overthink it again. I'm just praying that I will put all my trust in God's plan and not worry myself. I know He's going to take care of me, even if I feel like I'm blind to it right now. I guess that's why it's called faith.

Sorry that I've gone missing for awhile. My goal this year was to write a new post at least once a week, but things have been pretty crazy with school lately.

I've been trying really hard not to worry myself about what will happen after May 9th. It's getting really close and I have nothing lined up job-wise or other. I'm trying to just remember that it's not all under my control and that things will happen as they're supposed to. Right now, I'm just focusing on finishing this semester and doing well. I'm keeping my eyes and ears open for opportunities and getting my resume out there.

I went to a benefit show for To Write Love On Her Arms at Ward Church over the weekend. It had a few local bands, including The Dry Leaf Project who were really awesome, and also Stephen Christian from Anberlin. He played a few songs from his side project, Anchor and Braille, which I have always been a fan of. After playing some songs, he took a good amount of time to talk to the crowd about what it means to help people. He didn't just talk about depression and drug abuse, but also about just expressing love for everyone. It was really awesome to hear him speak so candidly and so passionately. This is obviously something he really feels strongly about, and rightfully so. He said the thing that initially made him fall in love with Jesus was Jesus' compassion and love for everyone, even those that society had cast aside. I thought his message was really inspiring and very heartfelt.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that a bit. It doesn't appear like school stuff will be slowing down anytime soon, but hopefully I'll be able to make some time to write a full post soon. If not, I've only got six more weeks of class!

I often hear people use the phrase, "We'll make it work." And I hate that phrase.

To me, that implies that the situation will be subpar and lacking. It assumes that things could be better, but for one reason or another, it's not living up to it's full potential.

I think a better phrase would be, "We'll make it best." Sure it sounds a little awkward to say, but it conveys much more. That implies that even if we don't have the things we thought would make the situation possible, we can still make the best possible scenario regardless of resources.

I think the area this affects most importantly is in our relationships. A relationship should never be about making it work, it should always be about making it the best. (For those of you who might not remember, "best" is a superlative.) The relationships we make in this lifetime are too important to just make them work, to let them only be good or decent. We should strive to make our relationships the best. If there is something standing in the way and only allowing them to "work," then we should attempt to eliminate those barriers.

I think we have all become too comfortable with having mediocre friendships, passable romantic relationships, and middling family ties. We are happy if things are just working out, if things are just agreeable. We are happy just being comfortable with uninspiring relationships.

I'm not excluding myself from this at all. While relationships are very important to me, sometimes I become too apathetic or uncomfortable with pushing relationships to meet their full potential. It's definitely something I'm striving to improve in myself.

In the end, what earthly thing is more important than the relationships we have? Our education won't matter. The money we have won't matter. Where we live and what we drive won't matter. How many Facebook friends and status updates we have won't matter.

But those truly amazing and outstanding relationships will, as long as we make them worth mattering.