Sleepless rambles about assiduous neglect
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Well, I definitely haven't been writing as much as I'd like to these past few months.
I didn't think it would be possible for me to be busier than I was these past couple years of college. I've found that it's not only a possibility, but my current reality. Every night, I've got something going on. Every weekend is completely packed.
I can't help but feel like most of it is just "stuff," though. It's all really great and I'm enjoying life, but I feel like I'm not doing everything I can. It's like, I'm not living to the potential that God has given me. I'm going for quantity, not necessarily quality.
I'm still hoping that I can one day go into some sort of full time ministry. I just really feel like that is the place where I'm going to really feel like I'm doing what I'm called to do. I've been volunteering with the middle school ministry at the satellite campus my church is launching in a few weeks. I've really been enjoying the preparation, and I am so excited for us to get students in there and just teach them, listen to them, and love them.
And as much as I want to do full time ministry, I don't think it's time for me to go in that direction yet. Right now, I feel like I'm at the place I'm supposed to be and doing what I need to be doing. I have to remind myself that progress comes in steps, not all at once.
I want to try to make sure I get at least a few hours a week that I set aside for me to do some personal reflection, writing, reading, and prayer. Pretty much every hour of my week is being filled by something, and unfortunately I'm sacrificing those important things.
Sometimes, by doing things I feel are godly, I end up neglecting God.
I can't help but feel like most of it is just "stuff," though. It's all really great and I'm enjoying life, but I feel like I'm not doing everything I can. It's like, I'm not living to the potential that God has given me. I'm going for quantity, not necessarily quality.
I'm still hoping that I can one day go into some sort of full time ministry. I just really feel like that is the place where I'm going to really feel like I'm doing what I'm called to do. I've been volunteering with the middle school ministry at the satellite campus my church is launching in a few weeks. I've really been enjoying the preparation, and I am so excited for us to get students in there and just teach them, listen to them, and love them.
And as much as I want to do full time ministry, I don't think it's time for me to go in that direction yet. Right now, I feel like I'm at the place I'm supposed to be and doing what I need to be doing. I have to remind myself that progress comes in steps, not all at once.
I want to try to make sure I get at least a few hours a week that I set aside for me to do some personal reflection, writing, reading, and prayer. Pretty much every hour of my week is being filled by something, and unfortunately I'm sacrificing those important things.
Sometimes, by doing things I feel are godly, I end up neglecting God.
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