I only have 5 weeks of class left. Then it's time for the "real world." (Not the over-dramatic MTV show, just life without school.) I'm pretty excited about the idea of graduating, but I'm a little discouraged because I don't know what's happening after.

I'm trying so hard just to fully put my trust in God's plan and not worry myself about it, but it's so difficult. I know that He has a plan, and I know that His plan is to prosper, not harm me. I keep just praying and letting it all go to Him, but soon after, I find myself trying to regain control of the situation.

I recently applied for this job that I really want. It's not the type of job I've been looking at normally, but once I read the job description, I knew this was something I wanted to do. I submitted my resume and cover letter by email and by mail. I even went out and purchased some nice manila envelopes and printed off some labels. It hasn't even been a week since I submitted it, and already I'm feeling kind of nervous about the outcome. I just keep thinking, "Should I call them? Email them again?" I even lost a night of sleep just thinking about this job.

I'm hoping that the excitement I have for this job, as opposed to some of the others I have applied for, is a sign that it's something good. It's not a job I want because it pays well (the pay is mediocre), but because it's a job where I can see myself making a difference and really enjoying the work I would do. That's much more important to me than a huge paycheck.

It appears I'm starting to overthink it again. I'm just praying that I will put all my trust in God's plan and not worry myself. I know He's going to take care of me, even if I feel like I'm blind to it right now. I guess that's why it's called faith.