As political of a person as I am, I have never written a blog about my political standings. Anyone who knows me knows I am a conservative, but that doesn't mean I believe everything that the Republican party does. I don't just go with the flow because that's what they believe is right. I decide for myself what is right and wrong.

Let me start by saying that there are three types of views on politics. Conservative, Liberal, and Anarchist. Each of these types of people view government in a different way. Anarchists see government as an unnecessary evil. Liberals see government as a necessary good. Conservatives see government as a necessary evil. And that's how I see it. I see government as something we need to take care of things that the people cannot take care of themselves, such as national defense and similar services. I think government should play the smallest role possible in a person's life. I should be free to do with my life as I please as long as I'm not effecting other people and I should not be held responsible for other people's actions. This is my main reason for being conservative.

Now I'm going to go into some of the popular issues that face us today.

Welfare: I cannot stand welfare. The idea that I work my butt off to pay for people to sit at home and not work is just ridiculous. I shouldn't suffer because I was responsible and got a job. There are private organiztions that provide assistance to the needy and thats how it should be.

Gay Marriage: Marriage is a religious institution and it should remain one. If two gay people want to get together and have the legal rights, fine. Call it a union.

Abortion: It's murder. Plain and simple. There are other alternatives. The child shouldn't have to suffer because it's parents were irresponsible. And people can't use rape as an excuse because rape kits prevent pregnancy.

Stem Cell Research: There are efficient stem cells found in adults. We don't need to grow and kill human beings for our own research.

School Prayer: Should not be forced in public schools. It's a free country and people are free to worship as they please. I should not force my beliefs upon them.

Capital Punishment: Murder cannot be justified by more murder. How can you say killing someone is wrong and punish them by killing them?

Taxes: Should be as low as possible. The wealthy should not be punished for making more money by having to pay more taxes. That's unfair taxation.

Those are the basics for now I suppose. That's why I'm a conservative. I'm sorry if any of these things have offended anyone, but they're simply my opinion as I'm sure everyone has their own.

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I'm trying very hard not to become and arrogant and hardheaded person. This task is much more difficult that it may seem.

I don't want to be a proud person. I don't want to be too proud to admit when I'm wrong or to ask for help. Such a high priority is placed on the pride of men. Very little good comes from being too proud.

I saw a homeless man today. Anyone that knows me understands that while I'm empathetic towards homeless people, I know that there are things they can do to help themselves. But I was thinking to myself, if I were in a position where I was losing everything, would I be too proud to ask for help? Would I end up on the streets because I'm too proud to go to a shelter or ask my family for some help?

Many people will say that the root of all evil is money. This is not true. The root of all evil is pride. Pride is what caused the angel Lucifer to be cast out of heaven and condemned to rule over hell. Pride is what causes marriages to collapse, friendships to end, money to be lost. It all comes back to pride. If a husband is too proud to see his wife as his equal, that marriage will fail. If a person is too proud to admit when they're wrong in an argument with a friend, that friendship will suffer. If a person is too proud to quit a dead end job or to know when its time to call it quits, they'll lose money. Greed for money is fueled by pride.

Most convicts end up doing more time in jail because they are too proud to plead guilty, even when they are.

There's a difference between pride and the feeling of accomplishment. The word "pride" is often used in place of that. It's not wrong to be proud of your friend's accomplishments or to be proud of the good grade you got in a class. That's a sense of accomplishment.

I just want to live in humility. And though this sounds like it'd be the easier thing, it's probably the hardest thing to do. I just pray that God will grant me the ability to acknowledge when I'm wrong. I don't want to be too full of pride to realize what's actually good for me.

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I have so many emotions right now that I can't even describe them. Good emotions, horrible emotions, weak emotions, strong emotions. Just so much I can't even put them into words right now.

The worst thing is, I'm not sure how to deal with them. It's not just the fact that I'm happy, angry and sad at the same time, but I'm so overwhelmed by emotion and I can't find a release. And men aren't supposed to cry. It's a sign of weakness, apparently. And I've always known that was crap but when it comes down to it, I'm afraid to cry in front of anyone.

I wonder if it'd be easier to be one of those people that feel nothing, those people that just don't care about anyone or anything, those people I can't stand.

And I just put myself in such a horrible place when I feel like this. And the worst part is when people you care about don't even notice.

I can't think of anything else to write about how I'm feeling. Sometimes I just want to leave everything behind.

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I'm realizing that life rarely pans out as expected. Six months ago, my life was very different. But really, things can change without warning. That notion is rather scary.

A lot of times I think about things that are far in the future, like where I'll be after I graduate college. Or who I'll be married to, will I have kids? But really, I'm not even sure where my life will be a few months from now. It just seems like things can change at a moment's notice. It kind of makes me afraid to get too comfortable with people, but it's inevitable. When I find people I get along with, I usually get very comfortable with them.

I've never really been afraid of change. In fact, I usually welcome it. But it's nice when some things just stay the same.

So I guess I just really need to be thankful for the things and people I have today because there's always that chance they won't be there tomorrow, no matter how much I don't want to let go.

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Love is a word I probably hear, on average, about 2 dozen times a day. Some people take that word more lightly than others I suppose. But I've been thinking a lot about what it really means to me.

To me, love is the strongest connection you can have with someone. There are different levels of love. There's love for friends, love for family, love for a significant other, love for God. Three of these are really obvious, but the one I've really been focusing on is love for a significant other.

So how do you know when you really love your significant other? How can you be sure it's not just pure lust or excitement? Because it is so easy to mistake those things. Sexual feelings can often imitate feelings of love, but its purely on a physical level. I guess thats what really separates love and lust. Lust is purely physical while love is emotional and spiritual.

Maybe that is what love is. Maybe love is a spiritual connection to that person. Maybe love between two people takes more than just those two people.

So I guess in reality, love isn't a decison you can make on your own. So how do you know when it's love? I wish I knew the truthful answer. Because love is more than just a word or a hug and kiss. Love is more than just writing notes to eachother. Love is more than just long talks or cuddling. It's more than just a physical attraction. Love is more than just an intellectual connection.

Love is spiritual.

And that's all I know. It narrows it down a bit, but it's still not precise. Maybe I'll never know it for sure.

Here's a quote from one of the most genius men ever born:

This is one of the miracles of love: It gives a power of seeing through its own enchantments and yet not being disenchanted. -C.S. Lewis

I guess the beauty of love is that when you truly experience it, you realize that your other perceptions of it have been wrong all along.

It's such a powerful thing.

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